Here's to the nights where the sand is your seat,
the waves kiss your feet, your friends outnumber the stars,
and even the chilliest of nights, are still warmer
than the cold one in your hand.
It's extremely hot today. It's really been hot all weekend. As much as I love the heat, it's always way better when I can be in a pool. Luckily the weekend involved tons of swimming. But let's recap first.
So, Thursday night I hung out with Missy and Joseph. The three of us went to lunch at this restaurant by the University called Archie’s, and then went back to Missy's house to help Joe do some tie-dye shirts for his class (he's doing a lesson on the 70's/hippies, so his classes all did tie-dye shirts). Afterwards, Missy and I went to this game night with some of her and Rusty's friends. It was actually a lot of fun, despite the fact that I only knew Missy. We played Cranium and drank some glasses of wine- all in all, a fun night.
Friday started off being a really good day. Work went by fast, especially since it was a short day and we got out early. I did a little shopping and bought some new clothes, and then met up with Michelle and Wolf to go shopping for masks (which I will explain later on).
Now, Josh had still been calling me every single day last week. Seriously, he'd call during work, after work, at night, etc. to see if I could hang out with him. We had actually made plans to hang out on Thursday after he got done babysitting, but he didn't call me when he said he would, so I went to the party with Missy, instead. He called me, of course, but it was too late by then, so I told him we'd reschedule.
Anyway, during work on Friday, Josh texted me and asked if I was free. I told him I was going clubbing- as Friday was the night that Miguel was having his masquerade-themed birthday party/Cesar's going away party (Cesar is going to Spain to study abroad from the summer), but not until later. Josh proceeded to tell me that he had tickets to a comedy show and he wanted me to be his date.
Finally, finally, I agreed to go on a date with him. I don't know what changed my mind- possibly the fact that all of my friends kept telling me to either "shit or get off the pot"- either go on a date with him and see if I like him, or tell him I'm not interested. I figured the comedy show sounded like a good idea, so after I met with Michelle and Wolf I went home and got ready.
Josh picked me up on time and we drove to Tahoe in his truck. We had to go to this club on North Shore, so it was about an one hour drive. We actually had pretty good conversations- mostly about dating and relationships. Even though Josh is 26, he's never really had a long term relationship, except with his ex, which ended when she told him he couldn't provide for her and he needed to grow up. His ex is 19. This seemed like a bad sign.
I told him about my dating history, and the most recent Jonathan story. The conversation was surprisingly fluid and not as awkward as it would seem; I mean, typically you don't talk about your exes on a date, but it wasn't really a bad conversation. Except when Josh told me his crazy views on dating (which are, to put it short- you meet someone and marry them, no matter how much you don't get along. Basically, the first person you date is the person you should ultimately marry. I hope Josh realizes that if I had done that, I'd be married to his BROTHER right now. Uber awkward).
Anyway, we got to the show and it was pretty hilarious. We drove back to Reno around 10 something, which was perfect because I was supposed to meet everyone at the club around 11. I invited Josh, and Josh invited his friend, Matthew, so he could have a friend too. We met up with Wolf, Michelle and my friend, Olivia, downtown and the group of us headed to the club.
We started at Bliss, which is like, my least favorite club in Reno. It's lame mostly because it has an 18 and up night (eww), plays crappy techno music, and every time I go, no one is there. Friday night was no exception. We had about 15 people in our group and we made up the ENTIRE club, besides one other small group of people. The only good thing about Bliss was 1) I ended up getting in without paying a cover and 2) The bartender gave me free drinks (go cleavage!).
We made the best out of it though. A lot of my friends were there, obviously, so I went and danced with them as soon as I got to the club. I think this threw Josh off- he seems to be very needy for attention or something, which was great during the date, because all my attention was clearly on him. But as soon as I started dancing with my friends and stuff, he got quiet (ala last weekend) and didn't talk to anyone. Even Matthew, who hadn't slept in 24 hours and knew NO ONE there, seemed to open up more and have more fun. It was odd.
Then, the next thing I know, Josh is talking to someone- but it's to one of Miguel's friends- a Japanese exchange student. Not only is he talking to her- he's blatantly flirting with her- running into corners with her and coming back giggling, attempting to dance ("attempt" being the key word, 'cause Lord knows the boy cannot dance!), etc.
Wolf, Michelle and Olivia were laughing because as I said, "I'm glad he found someone!"- but still, it was a bit rude. I mean, you do NOT go on a date with someone and then start flirting with another girl. I don't care if the date is going bad or whatever. It's just rude.
My friend James made a perfect analogy. "I think Josh just realized the date was crashing and burning," he said, when I told him what happened. "It's like when you try to cook a fancy dinner at home and then you burn it. What's the first thing you do? Order Chinese takeout."
I couldn't stop laughing.
Anyway, that's exactly what Josh did. Well, Japanese takeout, but you get the point. Fucking annoying.
We decided to leave Bliss and head to my favorite bar, 5 Star, and the whole walk there, Josh and I pretty much ignored each other. He spent the walk trying to talk to the Japanese girls (there were 2 of them), which was just awkward because they barely spoke English anyway. Then, as we were walking, he backed up to talk to two girls who were walking behind us. I think everyone saw this as a desperate act- first of all, neither of the girls was attractive, and second, neither of them were even interested in him. Just embarrassing, really.
I even said, "Wow, that was desperate." Matthew started laughing and I think Josh got mad, but I don't care. I was really annoyed. Once we got to 5 Star, I pretty much forgot about Josh and spent the night dancing with my friends. I ran into this guy, David, that I know and we said hi and danced a bit too. We didn't stay at 5 Star long before moving onto a club around the corner called Divine.
Divine was a lot of fun. It had no cover (which is even more amazing, given how awesome of a club it is), and had a really cool interior, including an upstairs area that you have to be let into by a bouncer. The bouncer IMMEDIATELY let me, Olivia and Michelle in, which was like, awesome, celebrity-status treatment. The guys had to wait a few minutes, which made all of us laugh.
Dancing at Divine was awesome. I saw another guy named David that I know there, and we danced and he kissed me before leaving. A chaste kiss, of course, but it was still sweet and good to see him. Then some random guy started stalking me on the dance floor and Olivia and this other really cute guy had to save me. Cute guy and I spent the majority of the night dancing, and I must say, it was really nice to go to a STRAIGHT club for once, because I actually noticed a lot of guys looking at me and I danced with two super cute guys. I dance with cute guys at the gay clubs too, but it's a lot more exciting to dance with guys that actually find me attractive and are not just drawn to me because I'm a "fairy princess" (as my gay friends call me- I prefer it over the term "fag hag").
Anyway, the whole time, Josh was glaring at me from the wall. I'll admit that I really played up the attention because of his flirty ways earlier- I mean, I hate playing dating games, but if a guy insists on playing them (as Josh obviously does- and actually said on the way to Tahoe, “I love playing games when I’m dating”), I'll play back. And I'll win. As I clearly did. Because I didn't come off as desperate, the guys all came up to ME, they spoke English and were all attractive- more attractive than Josh, actually. So there.
Then, as the night ended, Olivia and I ran into some guys we knew from High School on the street. One of them, Andres, asked for my number (Josh started loudly asking for the Japanese girl's numbers at this moment. So lame) to call me this weekend. He actually did, but I was out of town and he lives in San Diego at the moment, so nothing's gonna happen there. But it was still flattering.
Olivia drove me home, which was my choice. Josh seemed caught off guard when I said that I was going home with her- I don't know if he was hoping for a end of date kiss, but he wouldn't have gotten one anyway.
Liv and I spent a good hour eating Jack in the Box and then talking in her car about random stuff. I didn't get into my room until 4 am, then James called and I gave him a recap of the night. I didn't go to sleep until 5:30 and then woke right up at 11:30 to have lunch with Joseph.
After lunch, we met with Justin, Michelle and Wolf at Justin and Michelle's pool and swam all day. Around dusk, we decided to throw a little barbecue in Michelle's parent's backyard (because they have a nice backyard and a Jacuzzi), and we moved the party over there.
The barbecue was really fun. We had beers and steak and chicken, and sat around on the deck, drinking and laughing and talking while the Jacuzzi heated up. When the sun set, we took some margaritas out to the Jacuzzi and all got in. Things got a bit interesting in the Jacuzzi- Wolf took his pants off and tried to get me to do some "comparisons" in the water, which I declined, but Joe didn't...and just...yeah. Weird. I'm glad I wasn't THAT drunk- I definitely didn't have any regrets the next day.
When we got out the Jacuzzi, I was surprised to see that Mike D. had texted me. We haven't spoken since
last month when I got fed up with him. I had a feeling that he hadn't talked to me because he thought I was mad at him, which I was, so we went a whole month without any communication. Of course, I didn't forget about him, but I took him out the scheme of things concerning my dating life- particularly since our last conversation just pissed me off.
Anyway, I was slightly drunk still, so I forgot about being mad and texted him back. He asked me if I was seeing anyone, and I told him about making out with Fox. He didn't respond to that, but instead said he wasn't seeing anyone either. I asked him if he was waiting for me. He called me a tease.
Uh, really? I'm not a tease. I told him I wasn't a tease and he insisted that I was. I told him I was incredibly sincere, and he said I was but, "You're still a tease." Throughout all this texting, Joe and I are driving to Justin and Michelle's house to watch a movie and drink some more. I updated Joe the whole time with the convo and Joe agreed with me that Mike obviously wanted me, but wouldn't admit it for some reason.
Finally, I flat out ask him what he wants. He replies and says nothing, and then I write back and say he MUST, otherwise he wouldn't be texting me at 11 pm on a Saturday night. He finally admits that he does, in fact, "want me", but doesn't think a long distance relationship would work. I asked him if he lived in Reno, would it be different. And he said it probably would.
Gah.
So, we text back and forth a while longer and (because I was still buzzed), I admit that I am afraid of being hurt again or used. Mike replied and said, "Do you think I'm trying to use you?" And I said I didn't know. He wrote back simply saying, "I'm not."
The conversation ended with him going to bed since he had to work at 6 the next morning, and me feeling ultimately confused, yet satisfied.
I mean, I don't want a long-distance relationship either. And I think Mike is right- a long distance relationship wouldn’t work very well, especially with the two of us. Well, that's not true. I think if we both tried, we could make it work. But with Mike working two jobs, he's always super busy and not consistent enough to be a boyfriend- particularly not a long distance one.
But then, there's the fact that we like each other. Mike said in very clear terms that he is attracted to me, and would like our friendship to be something more, but I don't really know how I feel about that in this point in time, particularly since we are not in a relationship and might not be in one at any foreseeable time. It's kinda crappy.
But, at least I know for sure that we feel the same way about each other. That made me feel a lot better, actually.
At Justin and Michelle's, we watched Donnie Darko and had margaritas again- pretty fun end to the night. Joe and I left around 2 because we had to get up in the morning to drive to Rocklin, California.
Missy's mom and dad were having a barbecue on Sunday, so they invited Joe and I to come and party with them and Missy. It was about a two hour drive there (Joe and I have driven to their house before, so it was no big deal, really), and then Missy, Joe and I went on a "tour" of Rocklin, which ended with us getting frozen yogurt and pitas.
We got back to the house and went swimming, and then the barbecue started. Missy's friend, Garrett, came and the four of us hung out all evening- playing board games, going on an epic trip to Wal-Mart (long story), chatting and watching V for Vendetta. Garrett was a really cool guy- very laid back, and had the whole surfer look going- which works perfectly for him, seeing as how he's moving to Santa Cruz at the end of the summer. Missy and I told him he'd have to come and visit us in Reno before he moves, and he seemed pretty excited about it, so hopefully we'll see him this summer. He's just one of those really fun people that you immediately like.
Joe and I spent the night at the Henry's house, and the next morning we got up pretty early to leave. Missy's bought us all Starbucks and we spent a few hours catching up with Missy's parents before heading back to Reno. Joe and I had lunch together at this new Thai place, and then I followed him back to his house and took a nap on his bed while he worked on some stuff for his classes this week. After I woke up, we went and got Corazon and had coffee and went for a drive. It was a nice end to the weekend, for sure.
I'm heading over to Missy's house now to watch a chick flick and have dinner. It's Mike's birthday today, which I actually didn't know until earlier, when I texted him asking when his birthday was (pretty funny. It's also interesting to me that we are both Geminis...I've been studying astrology a lot recently and I've never had any sort of romantic relationship with another Gemini. Apparently this is supposed to be ideal, hmmm).
Oh, and just to keep you all updated: No, I haven't heard from Fox since last week, but I do know that he just got denied at the Canadian border and is having a hard time on his tour (sad face. He should've just stayed here with me in Reno). Josh called me on Saturday night (why?! I don't know!), and hasn't called me since- because his phone died. Elgin is pretty much out of the picture, but I think if we were to hang out again, there'd be the same amount of flirting as there was last time. And I really have too many guys in my life.
I don't want to become a nun, Lord knows I could never become a Lesbian, but I can certainly take a vow of life-long celibacy. Or at least, just stop talking to all men until I find one worth talking to.