Honestly, We'll Never Stop This Train ♥

Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

I never update here and I'm pretty sure no one reads this anymore, but I felt it appropriate to blog today, on my 24th birthday (since the last time I blogged was on my 23rd birthday).

This year is different than last year, however, because I just have this overwhelming feeling of thankfulness; thankful to be alive, to be myself, to be young, and beautiful and healthy and smart...and to just be whole and (pretty much) comfortable in my own skin. The truth is, none of us ever really know when our time is up, and God, am I thankful to add another year to my life. I think about some of my friends whom have already passed away, or my friends with incurable diseases and it makes me sad, of course, but it also makes me appreciate my own life even more. Every year that we get to live is a blessing- I understand that now. Life is less about stopping the train and more about enjoying the ride.

Don't get me wrong, my life is not perfect. I don't have a lot of the things that I want; my life isn't the perfect picture of what I thought it'd be when I was younger, or hell, even a year ago. But, I have many things I wouldn't have expected either. I have my apartment (with no roommates- finally!), I have financial stability, I have good friends who love me, I have a good family and I have a God who loves me too. My life may not be perfect, but I'm happy with it- flaws and all.

I don't think life will ever be perfect- at least, not for someone like me. It's not as though I'm never satisfied; I am- but I'm always looking for the next thing to work towards, so I'll always have some goal to reach toward in the future. I don't think there's anything wrong with that, and I'm looking forward to the seeing just what I can accomplish and learn in the next year.

Here's to an amazing journey! <3